<body> marc . cram <body>
Monday, October 31, 2005 11:59 PM


wah, 2day was a rushing day 4 me:) me cousin slept overnight again 2day at me hse, den 2day he got skool so hav 2 wake up at 6am to fetch him 2 skool lorz, he's oni pri 1. Den veri sian sia... yesterday while downloading the stupid real player, i fell asleep, den left the com and internet(mine is dial-up) on... WAH SIAO, i die liaoz, morning wake up den realise nvr off... oh shit, im gonna get it from my mum...

after fetching my cuz to skool, came back and play com... watch anime, den around 10.15am left 4 davin hse, i met ivan and joshua 1st, den go 2gether... down dere we play street soccer and tennis, i b goalkeeper... let in sooo many goal... den play ps2 again and do wat we always do when we go other pp hse... PARTY! hahas, lolx... goin to seperate liaoz mah... mus treasure the time we hav 2gether... december mayb booking chalet again...

BE STRONG AND DETERMINED, NOTHING CAN STAND IN YOUR WAY IF YOU TRY YOUR VERY BEST...





Saturday, October 29, 2005 11:59 PM


my cousins stayed overnight at me hse yesterday... at least i dun feel so lonely, without any siblings, i juz hav 2 make do wif my cousins, dey ar all younger den me, the oldest is oni 8years... *sigh* nononononono choice... hahas, im the eldest! MUAHAHAHA! mad liaoz...

went to joshua's hse 2day, bring my 2 cousins along... but stayed quite short at jos hse, cos' his mother angry, lolx... watched bleach and played ps... den i taught me cousins 2 b sarcastic, hahas, lame... sorri ivan... den at j8 watch final fantasy 7 movie again... hahas, at best denki, one of the tvs showing... hahas, i mad abt ff7 liaoz...

MAKE AS MANY FRENS AS U CAN, TREASURE THEM AND DON'T DISAPPOINT THEM, THEY MAY BECOME AN "ASSET" TO U IN THE FUTURE... BUT DO NOT TREAT THEM AS IF THEY OWE U A LIVING OR AS IF U BECOME FRENS WIF THEM JUZ 4 THE BENEFITS OF HAVING A BUSINESS PARTNER ETC. REMEMBER, TREASURE THEM AS MUCH AS U CAN...

bye...





Friday, October 28, 2005 8:07 PM


the exams ar over, i patched up (almost) wif jos and im having fun...

2day nevah go x-country, haahs, overslept... den i go raphael's hse play until lyk siao, my pants and shirt are SOAKED wif sweat... play the usual, soccer(street) and basketball again, but play wif other pp, we kenna thrash street soccer 3-0 three times sia... i score 2 goals, but tt match hav 2 restart cos' got new challengers... actually i wan go jos hse wan, but raph wan to pau to me tt i nevah go x-country during the collection of report bks if i dun go his hse, so no choice, hahas, but quite fun la, got ivan davin raph derick hanxiang and me. sooo many tings, sooo little time, hahas... quite true actually... 2morow goin jos hse, hope more pp can come... bsides ivan...

THE FUN IS JUST STARTING, TREASURE THE TIME U HAV AND MAKE GOOD USE OF IT...

from 2day onwards, i will write a "thought of the day" everyday to inspire pp out dere... look out 4 it ( i may not write it everyday cos' i may run out of ideas, unlike joel peh, the best news writer)...





Thursday, October 27, 2005 11:20 PM


the last day of skool has turned out well, at least 4 me... hahas

after skool, played soccer lyk the class of 2e1 always do, hahas, i assist so many goal sia... hope tat most of us will continue this in the next year when we bcome sec3s hahas... never seperated... always frens... den after soccer go dex's hse again, play nothin... i help dex to cook so many tings, mashed potato, pasta and sauages, hahas, lame, nothin to do... den play star wars on xbox and den play com 4 a while... went home at around 6

2morow is my skool's annual x-country run... however, the weather doesn't seem too good... ITS RAINING! hahas, happy sia... no need to run... last year i run tt tym nearly fall down 3 tyms, if 2morow still need 2 run on the wet mud i will DIE... hahas... nvrm actually, i planned tt if the rain continues i dun wan go skool 2morow liaoz...

and once again, i say it 4 the last time... let the class of 2e1 of the year 2005 remain frens 4ever... hope we go same class sia... can't bear 2 leave sum of me frens... hahas, gtg...





1:17 AM


ARGH!!! its 1am in the morning... i hav skool later on and im sick!!! argh! looking at other pp's blog makes me cry... i hate the government... slap their faces up down left right until dey look lyk joel tng... hahas, jp's phrase... then wesley's is hav 2 tink.......BOOM!!! brain exploded... hahas... well, dey ar all happy memories of course... but, 2 tink abt the unhappy ones make me miserable and regretful... i still remember the tym where i came 2 tis skool without noeing any1 except amjad, my pri skool fren... i oso remember how i made frens lyk joshua, jp, wesley, and jeremy... hahas, by coping their cards... well... we've gone through so much 2gether, i've broken up wif joshua, who doesn't trust or understands me... and through tis years, i've finally made some efforts to change my attitude... which made the OPG break up... *sigh* lets not tink abt it anymore... lets tink abt the FUTURE... yesterday i nevah go skool so i dun hav the promotion form *sigh*, wished i went to skool so tt i can hav sum advice to go to which class... haixxxx, very sad, veri sad, but no choice, life has to go on and on and on... without fail... time doesn't stop 4 us to let us hav endless tym to make our important decisions... time goes on and on and on and on lyk always... at least, through these experiences wif breaking up wif my best fren and having every1 ignore me cos' of my attitude helps me to tink more carefully and then i try my best 2 change... Through these experiences... u would learn abt life's tests and in future, u can cope wif them easily, well... THANK U all my frens in 2e1, u've helped me to learn, to become more mature... ... hope tat u oso benefited and enjoyed ur life's experience wif the rowdy and notorious class........

ST. GABRIEL'S SECONDARY 2E1 OF THE YEAR 2005...
arabadeen, amjad, ivan, jun quan, ashwin, wesley, nic chan, bing xi, davin, dexter, sundha, sean, gabriel, ian, joshua, siva, gary, kenji*, santhosh, jun rong, marcus kheng, marvin, yusof, fairuz, farhan, joel peh, matthew saw, wilson, elijah, marcus tan, raphael, joel tng, chee chao, jeremy, aloysious and wei kang...

hope tat some of us can remain in the same class... later on(cos' the time now is 1.15am) is the last lesson of our class 2gether, hope it will be our happiest and most remorable day together as a class... and lets hope tat we will ALWAYS remain as FRIENDS...





Tuesday, October 25, 2005 11:43 PM


2day was an absulotely rainy day sia... kenna drenched until lyk luo tang ji sia...

2day got some of me results, quite gd, his 77.5, d&t 70, sci 71.5 and eng 69, argh!!!! stupid english, otherwise i all A liao... hahas... den after skool go play soccer, we win. haahs so fun... after soccer den jp ask us go his hse, well jus after tat, rain lyk hell, thunder was roaring and lightning was striking! hahas... den wait sooo long 4 taxi sia, abt 10 taxis pass by dun wan 2 fetch us... hahas... who wan 2 fetch wet pp? hahas, then jp scold us lyk mad cos' we dirty his hse... hahas, paiseh...

2 all my frens out dere:
LIVE HAPPILY , PUT THE PAST BEHIND YOU , DON'T DWELL ON IT , IT WILL DISTRACT YOU AND MAKE YOU MISERABLE , SO , DON'T WORRY , BE HAPPY.

ME FRENS: (not in order)
wesley chan(froggy, rock fists)
joel peh(little pony, the sky is soooo high, the chickens wan 2 fly)
jeremy yam(lor mee, yamcake)
ivan ang(iceman, freeze!)
davin sng(crapper, rammer)
wilson soh(teleporter, willy the whale)
raphael(haymaker, titanium)
dexter(happyjuice, sickman)

joshua ng(judo freak, oso veri sick in the mind)
and not 2 4get all me pri skool frens...hahas...

i oso hav many other frens, too many to list, hope u can make do wif tis, hahas, dun worri, i will slowly remember all of u 1...

quote from wesley chan:
i must use my brain 2 tink.....ARGH! BBBOOOOOMMM!!!

------------------long pause-------------------

paiseh, my brain exploded, hahas, jus got a new one 4 $5 oni, if u wan can go wet market 2 buy... gtg...





Monday, October 24, 2005 10:11 PM


supposed 2 go dex's hse 2day... but never go due 2 the cloudiness of the sky... morning went back 2 skool 4 dental appointment... den i went 2 me fren's hse, dan, near me hse 2day... convenient and safe... hahas... den play final fantasy 7 the whole day sia... although did not manage 2 finish disk one... den i watch dan play maple lyk quite fun... but my com too slow 2 play any games... sooo... *sigh*

i must hav missed out on a lot of fun 2day... so many pp goin 2 dex's hse, must b very fun sia... but jp told me got a lot of problems...? wonder wat happened... but im very satisfied being able 2 spend my day wif a fren... *sigh* without frens, my life is NOTHING... hahas, bye...





Sunday, October 23, 2005 11:25 PM


went wif me father 2 compass 2 eat lunch... he goin malaysia 2morow... haixx... very sian of being sooo fearful... *sigh* nevah expected my life 2 b lyk tis... den after tat went 2 lavender 2 help my mum 2 move tings from her office again... from 3pm to 9pm... my hand sprain so many times sia... so pain... her boss says he wanna giv me his lcd com as a reward... well, looking forward 2 it... if he really givs it 2 me... hahas

2morow going 2 dex's hse again... hope tat nth bad happens again lyk last time... haix... gtg now... bb





Saturday, October 22, 2005 10:55 PM


Im becoming VERY depressed... i need a counciler... i feel lyk eating sleeping pills till i die... life is nothing 2 me...

1stly, ya, broke up wif my best fren, dun noe wat 2 do... i always say tings at the wrong time... at the wrong place... at the wrong... i dun noe... my head is freakin pain... 2ndly, i fought wif my mother 2day and i feel so guilty... its lyk im venting my fustrations on her... im very guilty... sorri ma... although u ar oso at wrong... well, she used a metal stick(the 1 u use 2 hang ur clothes) to whack the back of my head cos' i made her so angry... and i almost blacked out and fainted... blood came out and i was scared... but i was angry... tat was wat kept me awake... i wanted 2 kill... my mother ignored me and went into her room and locked her door...

the 3rd ting i oso dun noe... its lyk im angry wif the whole world... i dun noe wat 2 do... let me tell u wat im tinking abt if u c me daydreaming: im living on a place called earth, there ar buildings around me, technology, and most importantly...life... every1 has a religion... and dey believe tat when dey die dey go 2 a place, 4 example... hell or heaven... where we will most lykly find peace... and we still hav our memories wif us until we "reincarnate"...BUT... wat if the Big Bang never occured... wat if there is no such ting as hell or heaven... wat if there is no such ting as... LIFE?... wat if there was no earth... no such ting as planets... no such ting as the universe...? where would we b?... or where would our souls go?... we would jus disappear... and we would not hav memories... u can oni describe this wif 1 word... FEAR.... yes, tis is wat i hav every single day... fear of hurting my frens feelings... fear of losing all my frens... fear of dieing... fear of failing my exams... and fear of EVERY SINGLE THING ON EARTH!

yes, tat is wat im always tinking abt...

2day went out wif sum of my most trustable frens(my pri sch frens), went wif ZhiHui 2 eat lunch and meet 2 of his sch frens... doreen and kyna... well, im feeling so sick... i mean i hav a fever... yes and i continue wif my life... lol... then went 2 play basketball and soccer wif my pri sch frens until my hand is all sprained and in pain... ... then talk abt crap... our previous crushes... and many other things...

u can c my life is veri interesting... but in a bad way... *sigh*... my feeling of fear stared when i was in pri3, when i met a person called WeiJian. he's a sucker who gangs up wif his frens 2 bully me every freakin single day... without fail... and im always left alone wif no1 or no frens 2 talk 2... and tat is when i started being VERY reluctant 2 come 2 skool... every1 calls me names... and i get bullied everywhere i go... i get called a crybaby... and tolerate all these nonsense everyday... all these nonsense still continues into my secondary skool life...argh!!!...but no matter how hard i tolerate... i can never remove the fear in my heart again...

i wan 2 say sorri 2 those i've wronged and shown my attitude to... from 2day onwards... i will become a changed person... wif the feeling of fear in my heart increasing everyday... i dun tink i can tolerate any longer... bye...gtg...





Friday, October 21, 2005 3:06 PM


ivan, davin and jos come 2 me hse 2day, play ps, lame games lyk onepiece and crashbash. hahas... then go j8 walk a while, now at home, dey still playing ps... *sigh* jus broke up wif one of me gd frens yesterday, joshua, ya, he's so childish and naive... even if we patch up it will nevah be the same lyk last tym again... :/ haz... try 2 b happy... dun worri b happy...lolx... 2day my mood not gd, tis post shall end here... feeling sad cos' i lost a fren and happy cos' i made a new fren... ahrgh!!! so confused... bye...





Wednesday, October 19, 2005 8:41 PM


2day literature and science exam, literature quite hard, need lots of explaining... science quite easy, no need 2 explain so much...hahas...

after skool went 2 joshua's house wif ivan and davin. Not much pp, but more peaceful... jeremy joined us later cos' he say raphael wan 2 whack him cos' he call raphael a puffer fish, hahas... then after jos's mum cook lunch 4 us, we go msn 2 insult him lyk shit... actually i nvr do anything sia... i oni type: C.O.C.O.N.U.T coconut coconut ABC. wats wrong? then he say wan 2 kill us, oh no! hahas... then inside jos's room watch bleach, davin oni watch cos' got chio bu... hahas, then we go pps blog anyhow type, listen 2 a lot of music... then i do art prep work... davin play knights of the what temple and ivan and jeremy try to help jos overcome his fear of pp touching his neck, wah liao, scream until lyk shit... then jos's mum say wan to celebrate jos's belated birthday, so we help 2 eat his birthday cake then continue wat we were doing and went home around 5.30pm, so tired sia... hahas, fun day. Looking forward 2 soccer after the SA2 2morow, gtg...





Tuesday, October 18, 2005 5:42 PM


By the way, life goes on again...

2day me geography exam, quite ok, but still a little hard... yay, pass liao... but i tell u all my subjects sure 50-60 something 1... O_o ARGHH!!! 2 more days!!! study hard!!!... must do well!!!

Joshua's birthday 2day, gave him a Bleach keychain, im a gd fren rite? hahas... 2day go joel peh hse again. c, everytime i tell myself 2 study hard in the end sure go and play 1... hahas... But b4 we go, jeremy, wesley, jp and me pang seh every1! haha, so fun, 1st time pang seh so many pp... then at jp hse kenna whack by davin and raphael again... the same old thing... but 2day was different from yesterday, 2day was CRAZIER, hahas, more pp go and more things happen...

1st, joshua got a birthday "BASH", but this 1 was different, u dun whack tat person the no. of times according 2 his age, u tickle him for the no. of minutes according 2 his age, and we add sum more cos' it was sooo FUN... hahas, he kenna tickle until cry lyk hell sia, poor thing, hahz, and wat do u think happens when raphael tickles u? u laugh until u out of breath and then die a horrible death... c guys? the moral of the story is : stay clear of raphael during ur birthday... then after tat, not oni joshua but every1 oso kenna "rape", luckily i run away... hahas...

then after tat go and play soccer... the ball drop into the big drain... oh no, then joshua( as u noe, the judo freak ) went in and took the ball, and climbed up using the help of? raphael of course, the "muaythai freak" hahas... muaythai help judo, wat a nice combination... then we got no place 2 play, then play at void deck and badminton court, 1st time at void deck kenna chase away by residents then 2nd time at badminton court we c police, then we run lyk hell back 2 jp hse cos' there cannot play football 1... ... then go back continue play fifa 2006 AGAIN... sian lah, whole day play... no choice but to watch Bleach...

wells, gotta study now (yah... later sure play 1), stay tuned 2morow 4 more abt my life...(Welcome to My Life)...





Monday, October 17, 2005 6:55 PM


hahaz... 2day the 1st time i c raphael kenna scolded... in the bus, raphael spilled his pepsi, the bus driver not happy, then ask him " wat now?" with a not happy look on his face... haha, raphael dun noe wat 2 do, oni noe how 2 stare... so funny sia...

then at joel peh hse play so many stupid things, fifa 2006, ice hockey, listen 2 stupid songs, watch anime and oso play dragonball Z, hahas, so lame, behave lyk some small kids lyk tat, play until sooooo CRAZY... hahz... wat a day... hav 2 study geography sum more, my hardest subject... dun noe can pass or not... well, hav 2 study hard 4 oni 3 more days!!! then can PLAY PLAY and PLAY!!!!!! bye!





2:45 PM


oh no!!!!!!!!! my maths exam is soooooooooo hard... can pass... but pass until veri cham la... hahas... went 2 jp hse after a reallllllllyyyy long time, now still here... feels so good 2 hav frens... lol, LOL ... dun noe y jos go home without talking 2 me or ivan... sumting wrong... ... 2morow his birthday sia, still so unhappy... ... ivan sucks, cos' he's disturbing me while im writing this post, hahas, no la... he's my FREN, lol... later mayb writing 1 more post, stay tuned... hahaz... im laughing lyk crazy... cos' im CRAZY...hahaz... (we're playing lyk crazy here!)





Sunday, October 16, 2005 11:40 PM


nothin much happened 2day... jus me being crazy...hahas...

went out wif me father 2day... c? wat a change, hahas... 2 j8, compass point, rivervale plaza, sun plaza and puggol plaza. crazy rite? actually... no, i and me father do tat every week, jus tat i hav 2 study... while enjoying... haha, lol. ate lots of things, and bought a (cheap) birthday present 4 a fren... (c wat a gd fren am I) lol, if u wan me 2 buy bday present 4 u oso, jus tell me ur birthdate, i never 4get dates, and i'll buy one 4 u... haha, dun laugh hor, its 4 real, unless i really 4get ur bday or u never tell me then i never buy la... hahas, gtg...





Saturday, October 15, 2005 11:48 PM


My parents SUCK... both of them do not noe how 2 listen 2 reason, and dey tink tat wat dey do is ALWAYS right.

1st, my mum. in the morning, my throat was sore and pain, i felt irritated. She asked me a question, i answered... she asked another question, i shouted, then said i was sorry cos' my throat veri pain. she didn't care and went on 1 of her mad scoldings. she not even scolded me, she said the Tan family(my father's side) all sucks and all of them should die, and tat dey hav no feelings and all of them all filled wif hatred. is tat true joshua? and which parent would ask their child 2 die? even though tat parent is veri angry? oni my mum, she has been cursing me 2 die since i was young. after much quarelling and shouting and pushing and shoving, i went out wif her 2 j8 cos' i was feeling guilty even though i had 2 study lyk my father told me 2...

After going out, i came back around 5-6+pm and studied a little b4 going 2 my grandma's hse 2 eat at around 7+pm, my father, who was not at home, asked me come back early 2 study... my grandma started cooking at around 8 cos' she was veri tired, and while walking home from my grandma hse at around 9, my father called and said tat the Sims'(my mother's side) are going 2 destroy me and he didn't wan 2 care abt me anymore. well, i was angry and sad at the same time... i felt lyk killing myself... but i didn't cos' killing is a SIN...

Well... all these happened mainly bcos' of JEALOUSY... c wat it can do?(yes joshua, im refering 2 myself too... haha...) my mum was jealous of my father cos' i listened 2 him 2 stay at home and study, my father was jealous cos' i spent more time wif my mum than him this whole day... and did i tell u tat my parents were at loggerheads wif each other? dey had not been talking 4 more than 2 years and if dey "talked", it would be quarelling... C wat is so terrible abt my life? I hav soooo little frens 2 talk 2 abt my problems tat i hav no choice but 2 create a blog 2 spill out sum things... otherwise i would burst sia... and my final exam is still on, creating more stress 4 me... oh no... sum1 help... :( i already hav nothing in my life 2 hold on 2... nothing tat is worth living except my tiny group of frens... (including frens from both pri and sec sch...) and nothing more... my oni wish now is tat i hope tat I WILL SURVIVE...





Friday, October 14, 2005 10:58 PM


What an eventful and fun-filling day. In skool still the same la(every1 getting whacked by raphael, especially Ivan, so sad:( , paiseh ah raph, cannot go ur hse cos' got appointment... history exam 2day, it was A BREEZE, hahas. Not surprised actually, i study 4 1 whole day sia...

Then after skool i crazy liao, play soccer 4 1 hour+, then go home bathe, then go play basketball wif pri sch frens(zhihui, dan, junhong, qingting, xinyun) 4 more than 3 hours, then go dan's hse, watch final fantasy 7 movie (again). Well... u pp out dere may tink: Aiyah, big deal. Yes its a big deal. But the most important freakin final exam is still on!!! wat the freak... aiyah, nvrm, go home then study sum more, hahas...

Then got 2 run home lyk siao after tat cos' me father is veri veri veri veri angry... oh shit... then i get sum more assessment from him, sian la...

paiseh 4 posting so late... gtg now, hahas, crazy day(4 me), stay tuned 2morow 4 more crap(copy wesley chan's)...





Thursday, October 13, 2005 5:04 PM


Sian... yesterday actually me blog ok already, but suddenly got prob, then hav 2 create new account and start all over, oh well, nvrm...
2day chinese exam veri hard, almost cannot finish sia... luckily i lyk siao lyk tat anyhow do sia, otherwise cannot finish, oh shit! i'm gonna fail!!! then tat stupid reindeer make noise wif his pen in the middle of exam... slap his face la, distract me. I tell u, my class is crazy one sia... after paper 1 then throw table, throw chair and evrything u can c in the class room. this, kids, is called, MADNESS. wah liao, almost died sia... then after paper 2, every1 kenna whack by raphael...(not every1 la, oni ivan, jp and me) hahas...
gtg, pls come again 2morow, cos' raphael is going 2 whack more pp. hahas.







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