Friday, January 30, 2009 9:42 PM
only i can have the honour of capturing this epic shot of the empty class. because my cca always starts the latest at 3.30 x)
what. the.
mrs tan pms-ed today. she kept scolding us during training, and made us keep doing repeat drills. it wasnt the quantity of the drills that killed me. it was the repetition. do until sian also still must do. tsk.
i think im sick now. who passed it to me? augustine and my father lol. must be tsk tsk
Monday, January 26, 2009 10:21 PM
chinese new year has been modernized too much over the years, i realised. families allowing their children to go out with their friends on chinese new year days. people getting/giving red packets for the sake of money. children not appreciating the importance of the reunion dinner. and the filial peity.
sigh.
y'know, i can bet that you cant find a very very very faithful taoist nowadays, especially in modernized Singapore.
and thats why im proud to be one.
every year, my father tells me his same old stories about his past, about his encounters with fortune tellers, about his sufferings throughout his life, about his fate, about our family, about the suffering my family has gone through the past centuries, about the encounters with the unbelievable my family has gone through, about how he himself got dragged into praying.
if it was someone else, most likely, he or she will not appreciate. one ear in, the other ear out. i listen, and listen, and think. thoroughly.
i can tell many many true stories regarding my religion to everyone around me, but at least 1 out of 100 will say its all superstition, bullshit, rubbish, and some may try to act interested and all etc.
whatever, thats why i dont like to tell much about my family.
no offence to anyone but, people talk a lot about christianity these days. how they love to go to church, make new friends, say prayers everyday. there are many reasons to love christianity. i respect that, sometimes i even ask myself, why did i not convert? christianity is so convenient, anywhere, any place, just put your hands together, bow your heads, and pray. furthermore, u can make new friends in church.
for taoism, u have to kneel, pray to the altars where the statues are. go vegetarian on certain days. offer food on certain days. many many other things. not really anyone is willing to go through all that just to.. pray.
the reason why i stay so faithful, is because i find it.. mystical, interesting, and so real. many of the people may not believe the events i tell them, but i've actually seen some events with my own eyes.
my ancestors, including my grandfather and father, are all martial artists. qi gong, yong chun, tai ji etc etc. im the only one, who was deemed unfit for martial arts. my family said, it now all boils down to me, to change the fate of our family. my grandfather had many children, none of them had sons. rebritution has dawned on most of them, for reasons i shall not expose. therefore, i am the last remaining descendent of the Tan family.
the burdens lie on me.
i also just realised today, that i am of an older generation compared to the people who are the same age as me. for example, my father can be of the same generation as most of my friends' grandparents. so im considered the same generation as most of my friends' parents. how wonderful, haha. good or bad, time will tell.
but for now, im determined to change the fate of the route my family is going to take. history shall not interfere.
and it all boils down to me. this burden, no one can emphatize. no one.
***
today's bai nian was as usual as every year. just that my bai nian isnt the usual bai nian to everyone. my bai nian is to go visit my father's nanny when he was little, and his nanny's son and his sons. haha, reasons? long story ): ang paos i get are very little, but its the thought that counts. the tradition, just amazes me.
for the whole freaking day, my lunch was curry with bread. dinner curry with rice. and in the middle was tidbits all the way. some way to spend my first day of lunar new year.
just finished watching INKHEART with my family. borred me to death. no review for it. 1 star our of five. fuck it. that was the very first show which made me sleepy. -___-
Sunday, January 25, 2009 10:02 PM
after watching the mahjong movie on channel 8, i shall make a Lunar New Year Resolution:
I will try my best to be positive and smile or laugh at everything. sad, anger, happiness, jealousy, bitterness, loneliness, whatever.
***
this scene is set on 25/1/2009, Marcus and his family are eating their reunion dinner.
grandma: how come this piece of roasted duck so hard to bite one?
"that's bone, not meat"
"no lahh, im eating it, how come i dont know?"
"ah ma ah.. its bone, look carefully"
*looks carefully*
"ITS MEAT WADDDD.."
"ITS BONE! TOUCH IT AND BITE IT AGAIN LAH!!"
*touches, bites, looks*
"aiyyaa, its bone. i told u its bone liao thats why its so hard mah, why u shout at me for wad... bad manners lah u, u got go to school one anot, teacher got teach u to be filial.. blah blah blah"
WTF RIGHT.
still got many other scenarios can, wtf. my father and uncle changed my grandma's bedsheet, and den she still go and change, saying that they never change. plus, when we start to mop the floor, she say we never mop, den say new year mop not lucky. zzzzzzzz. and all the while she talks, she sits down there ordering all of us.
we cant scold her, we cant beat her. and we cant do any shit while she does all the things to irritate us......................................................
(controllllllllllllllllllll)
hahahahahahahahahahahahhahaahhahahaaa
fuck.
putting that aside, HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE!
1:53 AM
my best cny celebration in school. really.
and, yeah.
somewhere, over that rainbow.
Tuesday, January 20, 2009 10:04 PM
happy 500TH POST to my blog!
the first week of school. was, as usual, full of non-stop irritating tutorials, lectures and homework. but the tutorials for this week has gradually become tolerable, used to it? maybe lol. i like ms ng, not that i dont like ms tan. the way both of them teach, the understanding level is both the same, just that ms ng's lessons have a bit of humour in them =D
i have physical training everyday this week except for friday, which is chinese new year's day celebration! cant wait, we'll be having yu sheng and pot luck after the concert. hopefully there will be a sushi buffet on after that? =X
okay, so, back to present times. today was pretty tiring, mentally, physically. whatever u say. i was ultimate loser during recess, sooo, hahaha, i became some kind gentlemanly soul, helping to put everyone bowls back. after that was 3 straight periods of chemistry. 3 hours. and that was enough to kill almost everyone, even to the never-say-sleep qianyi. lolol. luckily during chem lecture, clement and carl kept waking me up so that the teacher wouldnt catch me sleeping haha.
after that was a period of break, which i continued my initial d campaign on azman's psp. and then it was the first period of MASS PE for the year! i just CANT RUN FOR NUTS. zzz. the push up/sit up/back raise/leg raise/tuck jump part was okay, even though we had to do 3 sets. the only though part was doing it in the sun, the freaking hot sun. burnt my hands a little zz. luckily we moved to the field halfway. i hope the subsequent mass pe periods wont increase its levels until so unbearable though. the level now is only just tolerable for me lol.
after MASS PE, was CHEM REMEDIAL. lol, yes, another chem period. but this one is only just on chem energetics, crapped with edmund in the back row also, hahaa. after remedial, i had to stay back for PCC duty for PTM cos caroline had tuition, so took over her. qianyi hanif gensen and edmund stayed back to PEI ME. thank youuuu. sobs, gan dong gan dong. ate fried rice for dinner, and then headed to outside PE Room to report for CARPARK DUTY. actually, it was really really fun, hahaha. issac lim said this ptm is very hiong cos they have to squeeze like 100 plus cars into our carpark. so we have to "squeeze, SqueezE, and SQUEEZE". thats what he said haha. so i spent basically the whole of the 1plus or 2 hours, standing at the entrance of the car park, raising my arms to point to where the driver should drive to or park to. its fun luh, like a real life version of those times when u were a kid, playing with toy cars, and parking them. LOL
cars cars cars. loves.
***
bbq last saturday was GREAT. i'm so glad i insisted on pushing on with the bbq, hahaha. everything worked out well in the end =D although i didnt even eat a piece of chicken wing, and the sotong got weird. we had pizza, chips, and the POOL. and not forgetting the cookies and wii session at ed's xD
***
rewind back to last year, about nearly the end of december. rmb i went on a penang trip? =D finally got the pictures from my father. hahaha. i seriously miss genting. as well as the club.
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and now for some random pictures i was supposed to post or blog. BUT I WAS TOO LAZY. IM SORRY. lolol
my blog has come a long way lol. the url of my blog just gives me goosebumps sometimes, like, wah, so "childish". haha, but owellz, i wanna feel the essence of my past lingering on.
and marc ends this 500th post. with a blast.
share a smile,
spread the love.
Thursday, January 15, 2009 9:21 PM
fate,
what are you?
the disturbance of life's energies?
or merely just a harmless breeze?
love happiness and peace
give me these
or pray to god,
i wont CALL THE POLICE.
fate, give me hope
fate, give me strength
but fate,
dont just stand there and give me that stance.
fuck you fate,
cos you suck,
i will cease to believe in you
unless now, u GIVE ME SOME LUCK.
alas,
i insult you no more
and i shall continue to believe in the hope u once gave to me
once more.
patience,
i will wait
till the day,
u take my bait.
fate,
you are king,
because for all the words i said above,
i was just joking.
fate,
i believe in you
fate,
i trust you
dont take away the faith i have in you,
otherwise i will scrub you away from my life,
with head and shoulders shampoo.
muacks.
Tuesday, January 13, 2009 8:59 PM
tolerance level getting kinda low these few days.
i wont be surprised if one fine day i suddenly shout in class and go perma emo.
3:29 PM
happiness rating: +10
homework homework more homework
chore chores more chores
i still prefer the old classroom though, smaller and "cozier".
not that i really liked the HUMIDITY of the old classroom. cos the new one is really windy hahah. plus its facing field and the bball courts =D
2nd day of school, and, already, the new PCC's saikang job is getting tougher and tougher. got to find new CIPs which my class can do. and our new home tutor, ms ng, has already emailed me on 2 suggestions and wants me to discuss with the class. story reading to kids and batam ocip. but i doubt those who went to batam last year would want to go again right? lol.
maths holiday homework, econs holidays homework, econs tutorial, chem tutorial, read GP articles.
thanks to JYMS, jiaxin, qianyi, marilene and siyuan for the impromtu belated birthday present today, xD "london bridge"
,
long day tmr, plus cca.
Sunday, January 11, 2009 9:45 PM
school is starting tomorrow! in about 9 hours! so exciting right?!
dash underscore dash
4:21 PM
taken from raphael's blog.
TEN ARE YOUS
1. Are you single - yes
2. Are you happy - not as happy as i would like to be
3. Are you bored – kinda, i just wanna escape from homework
4. Are you fair – not very
5. Are you Italian – no
6. Are you intelligent – depends on the topic in discussion
7. Are you honest – yes, most of the time
8. Are you nice – too nice to be true
9. Are you Irish - no
10. Are you Asian - yes
TEN FACTS
1. Full Name - Tan Yoong, Marcus
2. Nicknames – marc, ah kow, fat fat chubby chubby, tissue man etc.
3. Birth place - singapore
4. Hair color - brown
5. Natural hair style - side parting
6. Eye colour - brown
7. Birthday – 10th December 1991
8. Mood – neutral
9. Favorite color - red
10. One place you'd like to visit - old trafford, manchester, england
TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE
1. Have you ever been in love - i dont know the definition of love
2. Do you believe in love at first sight – yes
3. Do you currently have a crush? – no
4. Have you ever been hurt emotionally - somewhat
5. Have you ever broken some one's heart - not that i know of
6. Have you ever had your heart broken - no
7. Have you ever liked someone but never told them - yes
8. Are you afraid of commitment - no
9. Who was the last person you hugged – i forgot
10. Who was the last person you said I love you to? - those 3 words, are kinda hard to say
TEN THIS OR THAT
1. Love or lust - love
2. Hard liquor or beer - beer
3. Cats or dogs - dogs
4. A few best friends or any regular friends - a few best
5. Creamy or Crunchy - crunchy
6. Pencil or Pen - pencil
7. Wild night out or romantic night in - romantic night in
8. Money or Happiness - happiness
9. Night or day - night
10. IM or phone - phone
TEN HAVE YOU EVER
1. Been caught sneaking out – yes
2. Seen a polar bear - yes
3. Done something you regret – yes
4. Bungee jumped – no
5. Eaten food that fell on the floor - 5 second rule, yes
6. Finished an entire jaw breaker - whats a jaw breaker?
7. Been caught naked - no
8. Wanted an ex bf/gf back – never
9. Cried because you lost a pet – no
10. Wanted to disappear - yes
TEN PREFERENCES IN A PARTNER
1. Smile or eyes - eyes
2. Light or dark hair - dark
3. Hugs or kisses - hugs
4. Shorter or taller - shorter
5. Intelligence or attraction – attraction
6. Topman or Zara – zara
7. Funny or serious - funny
8. Older or Younger – younger
9. Outgoing or quiet - outgoing
10. Sweet or Bad - sweet
TEN HAVE YOUS
1. Ever performed in front of a large crowd - yes
2. Ever talked on the phone for longer than an hour – yes
3. Ever tried walking on your hands - no
4. Ever been to a rock concert - no
5. Ever been on a cheer leading team - no
6. Ever been on a dance team – no
7. Ever been on a sports team - yes, basketball
8. Ever been in a drama play/production - did i? i think so
9. Ever owned a BMW, Mercedes Benz, Escalade, Hummer or Bentley? – no, i prefer a ferrari
10. Ever been in a rap video? – no
TEN... LASTS
1. Last phone call you made - gensen tyo
2. Last person you hugged - forgot
3. Last person you hung out with - gensen marilene joanna qianyi hoichuen
4. Last time you worked - never did
5. Last person you talked to - dad
6. Last person you IM'd - jinfei
7. Last person you texted - jinfei
8. Last person(s) you went to the movies with – qianyi siyuan marilene joanna clement gensen, bedtime stories
9. Last person/thing you missed – genting
10.Last website visited – http://www.speariff.blogspot.com
12:07 AM
happiness rating: +78
spoiler alert
Bedtime Stories.
simplistic, epic, romantic, homely, hilarious.
bedtime stories, is a movie, told simplistically, NARRATOR style. the story of Skeeter Bronson who has to take care of his niece and nephew when his sister is away. and realises that whatever share the kids have in the bedtime stories he told them, it becomes real in real life. from raining gum balls, to getting kicked by a drawf while kissing a "fair maiden", and from the red horse, to sir fix-a-lot and sir buttkiss. bedtime stories is in fact, 3-5 stories put together into one movie. i loved the pet guinea pig the kids had, with BIG EYES, bugsy! went to check it out and found out that bugsy was in fact, 100% CGI. coool. especially loved the red horse "ferrari", haha, really cranked me up. the movie doesnt stray from original concepts like saving the maiden in distress, "saving the world" and getting the girl in the end. Skeeter goes through so much, to find out the importance of "home", and to bring "home", into the hotel which his father once owned. and he also realises, that love, is sometimes, just right in front of you. the movie is just so creative, because it is just unpredictable most of the time. =D whoever said bedtime stories suck, suck even more. because these kind of original concepts, is what most audience go for. happy endings ftw.
***
yepp, went to watch bedtime stories with joanna marilene qianyi siyuan clement and gensen today at the cathay. movie rocked. food rocked, what more can i ask for? haha. after movie, went for "dinner" at some sushi place at the cathay, and then walked to orchard plaza, siyuan joined maths tuition. met jiaxin as she came out of her chem tuition. qianyi marilene joanna and i then ahead to TAKA to eat and window shop, hahaha. toys section ftw! met gensen and hoi chuen for their dinner at ps, and then home (:
homework chionging time yo.
Saturday, January 10, 2009 12:09 AM
happiness rating: +83
to bball guys: big sorry, misunderstanding. got angry a bit too early bah lol. but nvm, still sorry. u guys are great. AUGUSTINE LOL. NICE DANCE LAH. HAHAHAHA. i cheer until i lost my voice sia, haha.
today's open house was really great. coach suan-ed me instead of scolding me, which was better than i expected lah, cos i wanted to explain to her why i didnt go for the past few trainings. but nvm, putting that aside, the rest was good.
spent the whole day walking around with edmund hanif siyuan. lolol. first went to watch the bball's dance performance. DAMN CUTE AND COOL HAHAHA. omg lah, i like final pose, lol xD went off to find ryan and qianyi and huixin and marilene and forgot who. and den went to the PAC to listen to BROTHER'S TALK and watch the CONCERT. it was a mini concert, a few of band sections, chior, guitar ensemble, and DANCE. but the music was soft luh, i think the people didnt know the controls for the sound and lighting cos they confused many times. went back to the quadrangle, watched the hot shot dance AGAIN xD with philip this time round haha. after our bball dance, the real CJ DANCE took over, and the dance was dammnnn mesmerising, damn nice. damn nice. and damn nice. no videos or pictures to discribe, i think all with hanif as USUAL haha.
encore performances, although the same as the concert, really rocked too. we can never get sick of good dances i realised. =D went to take FSV NEOPRINT. hahaha, not the real one, but its cool okay. the haunted house queue was imbal, decided against it. overall, i think the open house was fun (:
dinner after that with the class was cute, we had no where to go cos we had 15 people. so we went food court, and we had to split into 4 tables all around the food court, hahahaa. ate indo food, and shared a banana split with clement and edmund xD and im telling u guys out there, THAT isnt a very good combination. zzz. stomach starting to hurt yo.
after the dinner, everyone went to starbucks, which then i left really bad for psing the guys at amk. so i zao-ed to amk to meet gina jy xy dan and zh at haji karim. crapppppppppppped. and the stupid "WAITERS" never give me my ICE KOSONG. kudos to them, i ordered ice kosong like 6 times or more.
saturdays are becoming not very appealing to me these days. i like fridays more. =D
Thursday, January 08, 2009 5:42 PM
BBALL SUCKS. TODAY EVERYONE WENT DOWN TO SET UP BOOTH ETC ETC. AND NO ONE INFORMED ME. FUCK BBALL
Wednesday, January 07, 2009 7:29 PM
happiness rating: -17
HARMONIE II yesterday was, at least, better than the last concert i went to. errrrrrrr, con fuoco dunno what number haha.
esp liked the solos and the dunno what mighty thing when the whole band danced.
percussion was nice, haha. cool alien.
jinfei and maybe zh slept throughout the other pieces i didnt mention, and i bet edouard too xD
prata was darn good, should've ordered like 3 pieces of plain and nothing else.
***
back to school feeling sucks. just sucks. the homework, exams, tests, just spoil everything. the thought of getting scolded by teachers for not doing homework, for sleeping in class, for talking in class, just sucks the world up. someone console me lol.
bball is getting darn boring. no one informed me about any freaking training or meeting. i changed number, told them, no one cared. fuck? then coach comes after me like its my fault. the only time i was informed was for the 2nd jan meeting, which russel only told me the day before. which i overslept, and didnt care. cos it fucking sucks, i had to FORCE russel to help me find out. if i had a choice i would just quit bball right now.
but i like bball
whatever.
i just wish i can dota peacefully without any homework or cca things on my mind.
speaking of cca, cca fair on friday. thought that the whole bball will be dancing, luckily its only 6 people. good wad, i missed the meeting with no consequences then.
at this point of time, i dont mind not getting chosen for the team already. cos it just sucks.
Sunday, January 04, 2009 9:21 PM
"last post of '08"
well, the reason why i miss 2008 so much, is because 2008 was great.
2008 was filled with so many "first times".
feelings, happiness sadness anger, were totally redefined in MARCUS'S terms.
honestly, at the start of the year, i was totally NOT looking forward to school. afraid to meet new people, afraid to make new friends. why? because 4 years of boys school made me afraid of girls haha.
first day of school on february the 20th, was the epic day, i thought my class was some anti-social shit class. surprise surprise :) although the only adjectives that appear ever so very brightly in my mind until now are "gentlemenly GENSEN", "rough RYAN", and "contradicting CAROLINE", i love each and everyone of you. i didnt even have a chance to say "i hate going to class". every experience was valuable, sleeping in lectures, going crazy in class, tickling siyuan with clement, dota-ing with the usual gang, skipping lecture to play chess with gensen, chessing every break time, cheering for edouard in his tennis matches from our classroom, singing with edmund and the girls, gaying with hanif, inter-class bball and many many more. kept inside my heart, these memories will be, away from the pressence of time, away from the frictions of reality.
i will never ever forget, it was just because of one free period from RAGANATHAN, that 1T31, became 1T31.
i wont be afraid to admit, that the one thing i really hated this year, was the conflict with zhengyi, i treated him as my very very good friend, nevertheless, wrong decisions will be made throughout our lives. im still unsatisfied with how the conflict ended, only one way, but i shall forgive, and never forget. because this - is how i grew up.
most people accuse DotA of being a study killer. but i'd say, DotA brought the class together :D
the birthdays celebrated throughout the year, and the class chalet, are things i've never done in my school life before. i really have to thank T31, each and every one of you, in making 2008, a fufilling year for me, er shi wo da kai yan jian.
next, the clique, dan jf zh xy jy and gina. wow, another year huh. kinda sick of prata, lets switch to some other coffeeshop? haha. the prata shop will close one day wad, must think of substitutes now lololol. come to think of it, we never really had a chalet before, although we held so many thousand of bbqs at my house hahaha. next one next one. okay bro.. LOL.
to my family, "thank you daddy", "thank you uncle danny", "AH MA! GAM SIAH LAH!".
2008 passed really fast. many holidays, but much more work to do. but surprisingly, somehow, everyone survived.
may everyone continue to prosper in the year of the cow, 2009. good luck, straight from my heart, to everyone taking the A levels this year.
Thursday, January 01, 2009 10:59 PM
it has been long since i typed www.blogger.com in my web browser.
or rather, a year? xD
first off. HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!
it has been a great 2008, a quick one actually.
i got 3 things to blog about:
1. MALAYSIA TRIP
2. "LAST POST" OF 2008
3. NEW YEAR COUNTDOWN WITH T31 AND CHU.LIAN
these 3 topics, will take at least an estimated 3 hours to type, so i shall postpone those posts haha. in the mean time, i shall take the time now to thank a few ppl.
first off, bros
thanks guys, even though the girls pangseh-ed us, haha, 4 of us is enough to make the fireworks go up, the countdown to turn out all well, and for the world to continue revolving (:
secondly, these 3 people.
coincidently, there is a picture of the 3 of you inside, so i koped it and used it xD thanks to hanif siyuan and gensen, for joining me after the countdown, for the company, and for your presense. if u guys werent there, the conversation between dan jf and i would be something like this:
dan: eh want drink?
jf, marc: anything.
*drink*
jf: now do what sia?
marc: dota
dan: set
LOL. yeah, with you guys around, the movies were suddenly so much funnier to watch (: and the card games were fun right? haha
thanks to T31 for the meal, for the fun at marina square, and for the whole of 2008.
to be continued in later posts.
jinfei:
"如果你要人家爱你，首先，你要学会爱人家"
