Saturday, October 15, 2005 11:48 PM
My parents SUCK... both of them do not noe how 2 listen 2 reason, and dey tink tat wat dey do is ALWAYS right.
1st, my mum. in the morning, my throat was sore and pain, i felt irritated. She asked me a question, i answered... she asked another question, i shouted, then said i was sorry cos' my throat veri pain. she didn't care and went on 1 of her mad scoldings. she not even scolded me, she said the Tan family(my father's side) all sucks and all of them should die, and tat dey hav no feelings and all of them all filled wif hatred. is tat true joshua? and which parent would ask their child 2 die? even though tat parent is veri angry? oni my mum, she has been cursing me 2 die since i was young. after much quarelling and shouting and pushing and shoving, i went out wif her 2 j8 cos' i was feeling guilty even though i had 2 study lyk my father told me 2...
After going out, i came back around 5-6+pm and studied a little b4 going 2 my grandma's hse 2 eat at around 7+pm, my father, who was not at home, asked me come back early 2 study... my grandma started cooking at around 8 cos' she was veri tired, and while walking home from my grandma hse at around 9, my father called and said tat the Sims'(my mother's side) are going 2 destroy me and he didn't wan 2 care abt me anymore. well, i was angry and sad at the same time... i felt lyk killing myself... but i didn't cos' killing is a SIN...
Well... all these happened mainly bcos' of JEALOUSY... c wat it can do?(yes joshua, im refering 2 myself too... haha...) my mum was jealous of my father cos' i listened 2 him 2 stay at home and study, my father was jealous cos' i spent more time wif my mum than him this whole day... and did i tell u tat my parents were at loggerheads wif each other? dey had not been talking 4 more than 2 years and if dey "talked", it would be quarelling... C wat is so terrible abt my life? I hav soooo little frens 2 talk 2 abt my problems tat i hav no choice but 2 create a blog 2 spill out sum things... otherwise i would burst sia... and my final exam is still on, creating more stress 4 me... oh no... sum1 help... :( i already hav nothing in my life 2 hold on 2... nothing tat is worth living except my tiny group of frens... (including frens from both pri and sec sch...) and nothing more... my oni wish now is tat i hope tat I WILL SURVIVE...
