Wednesday, November 23, 2005 11:59 PM
mi 2nd post for the day...
i've nvr felt this feelin in a VERY long time... yes... and this feeling is called LONELINESS... 2dae, ivan went out wif joelpeh, davin and raph wif davin's frens... june, joey and elizabeth... dey didn't tell me... i oni knew tis when i read ivan's blog... and i called every single 1 of them while dey were still playin to ask 4 2morow's plans... dey lied 2 me... saying tat dey were all at places near their own houses... thx ivan, 4 at least posting abt it... i've missed this feelin, the feelin of loneliness is so great... it can make it seem u're the oni 1 on ol' planet earth... well, i actually already suspected dey were 2gether... cos' i called all of them and all the background sounds were the same... but i believed them... i believed their "lies" cos' i believed tat dey were my FRENS... true ones... but... i don't blame them 4 not tellin me cos' i noe of my own attitude... yes... i noe my attitude sucks... and i sometimes feel surprised even at my own character and wat i can do to make pp stay away from me... but anyways, i still feel sad... i really dun blame them... although dey hurt me in a way and still being my ONLY good frens in secondary skool so far...
I ONLY WANT TO KNOW THE REASON WHY, PLEASE... and btw, to my frens out dere... im strong on the outside... VERY VERY VERY weak on the inside...
