Saturday, April 29, 2006 11:59 PM
hmm.. its 2.34, fun rite... set as 11.59pm so that blogger will put it as today... haha...
im addicted to the song kyung hoon sent me... haha...
was tokin to fel jie on fone... and uploading songs... when wilson came my house...
actually wanted to go library, in de end a lot of ppl cant make it... so wilson stayed at my house play ps... haha... and den he do his powerpoint project... i oso nid to do... but oh well... two more days to go... lol... den i went wif him to central, he bought macs... i ate at coffeeshop...
fel jie called... toked on fone for abt half an hour... gotta put down... den she msged me... halfway nvr reply =(( oh well oh well...
and joshua... please... best frens need to trust each other at least 99% thats y they are called BEST frens... if u dun always trust me... pls dun suddenly send a msg saying dun b my best fren... please... i noe u trusted me by sending me a msg when u are in need when u quarell wif ur parents or sumting... i always try to help by suggesting sum solutions... but if u are unhappy wif them, dun b unhappy wif me... u do not need to b unhappy wif me to b unhappy wif my solutions... and den when the solutions are useless because the problem has been resolved... u also do not nid to b unhappy wif me too... its up to u actually, i have no right to make decisions for u...
someone up there... has been granting me good experiences needed in life... thank u... and the weird thing is, i dun experience them... i see them happening to people... and den when it really happens to me... i noe how to handle them... this is weird baby... weird...
im seriously having problems wif my studies... i seriously cant understand A LOT of things... especially the three sciences... NOTHING can get into my head... i WANT to understand them... but the problem is... the teachers teaching them make it SO confusing... i seriously cant understand a single thing... i have no problems wif maths... i call maths my "so-called" speciality... english no problem... chinese... YES, i've been failing it since the start of this year X( sumone help me... i cant take it... i nid a personal tutor or sumting...
i hope sumday... i can invent a time machine or sumting and go back to the past... change the past... and all will b happy...i totally agree wif wad jeremy has said of me during the time he hated me... i make the bloody wrong decisions... thank u jeremy...
i think i sumhow, have woken up from my dream...
now u all noe y i blog at night... im "nocturnal"... i think a LOT at night...
and speaking of inventing, i envy people who have goals in life... i doubt i have any... i jus want to drive or race a car professionally... i had tat goal since im very young... but, if that is my oni goal... y am i studying soo hard? i rather jus get a license, learn abt engineering, abt cars... and do what i want... i really want to find a goal in life... where all this studying makes sense... and i can really make use of them... i dun want to have a piece of paper( aka a certificate) for nuts ( aka for nothing )...
i need sumting to keep me going on... i have nothing actually... my family is a piece of shit... my studies are getting shit too... in my life... i only have my friends and enjoyment. but... sumthing is stopping me for some reason. i don't noe. and i don't want to noe. i jus dun want my life to b a routine... i want it to b fun. to b enjoyable. to b copable. but for some reason, somethings jus prevent that from happening.
i jus love this post. i finally expressed how i feel all these years. well, not all, but at least most of them. i think too much... haha... people who took time to read the whole post... i thank u for that...
chelsea thrashed man u, how sad can that be?
THINK BACK. REGRET ALL U HAVE TO REGRET. MOVE ON. YOU CANT DO ANYTHING ABOUT THE PAST.
